Sunday, October 12, 2008
Losing you would be to my great lost.
I may have not APPRECIATED you. But do you?
And have you ever thought that, at the rate we're going, none of us is actually happy.
It's now a matter of "if not today then tomorrow" that we had to argue over something.
If you say I'm the fault of the argument, I'll take the blame.
But think again. Which girlfriend can stand always being accused of things she's not, an outcome of his unduly worries, and have to take her boyfriend's sudden change of mood every now and then?
And let's not even go into fulfilling promises. Wrecking.
I really don't understand what is it taking you SO LONG to get a phone?
Promises be promises. Phone nowhere to be seen.
You know that it is already difficult enough for me to trust you, and yet you didn't make an urgency to do something about it.
And "BETTER YET", some bugger dropped bombs about you.
YES I chose not to believe.
But do you think it's easy for me to trust you instead?
With me frequently feeling like I'm kept in the dark, the answer is a simple NO.
You've failed to prove to me how much you really love me and how much I meant to you.
Seeing is believing, saying is a breeze.
Thus this heck-care character in me.
While sadly, some decisions are finalised even before confiding in me. So where do I fit in this relationship? Aren't my feelings as equally imporatant?
And the fact that it was way easier to meet you before we were together compared to now, makes me more skeptical of your honesty.
I'm sorry to have doubted your sincerity again.
But it was you who evoked these uncertainty from within me.
Too much secrets, too many informations do not correspond.
Too much time lost, too insecure.
Think about it my dear. Loving you alone is not enough.
|| The Muse Spoke @ 10/12/2008 05:58:00 PM ||
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Mardiyah Binte Jumari 
